There are times when i think to myself. There have to be millions of girls like me out there. How the hell did i come onto the conclusion that i was special. That i was the only one with the problems. Maybe the problems didn't come in the same sequence, or even degree, but i am sure, there are other girls who have had the same life as i.
There has to be some way to make every one understand, you are not the only one. STOP LAMENTING OVER YOUR LIFE!
And no, do not skew this into thinking, "That was quite rude! She is just bitter because she doesn't get attention." This is my way of rationalising the situations i have gone through. There have been people in worse conditions (i know - i have heard the stories about the starving children at the dinner table) however, the situations i have been in, though not as bad as theirs, have been tormenting for me.
So this is my list of Silver linings!
I lost my father when i was a kid - there has to be a positive to this! I cannot keep slapping my forehead and yelling "Why me lord?!" all my life! Once he was no more, i was the only thing keeping my mother sane ( that's what she said! As far as i can recall, i must have driven her to the brink of insanity with my tantrums ), i became secluded, dove head straight into books to keep me happy... leading to me staying away from partying, drugs, sex and a hell lot of things the cool kids were experimenting with at that time.
I saw what the consequences were for some of them. Teenage pregnancies, getting involved with thugs and goons, failing school, it was a nightmare, but they pulled through by teaching themselves one sentence - at least we were cool and famous.
I had several heartbreaks as a teenager, no boy was really ready to go out with me, and my crushes were definitely repelled by my actions. I remember telling one such incident in my previous posts. Where is the silver lining? I developed character and a personality. I didn't manage to make my self thin and shallow like a lot of school girls i see now. I am loved by the people who know me (not bragging, but really they do love me - can't write this without a smirk on my face)
I commited the blunder of taking risky and addictive substances in college. I only hung out with boys because of this and became the root of a lot of unwanted rumours. So much so that there came a time when i was linked with more than five guys at once. Silver lining? I had fun with the guys, even though it was the wrong way, i gained experiance, i came to know what is wrong and to what degree was it considered right. I now know that my kids will go through the same phase and unlike my previous generation, i would be a little more tolerant about engaging in social drinking, smoking, etc. I might be more understanding if such a situation arrives.
I fell in love with a boy who used me ... for over two years. Sounds like i was stupid and he was just being a guy. I lost my self esteem, i lost many friends, i lost my mind, my enthusiasm for life, i lost him in the end too. Silver lining - I have a thicker skin now. There have been other guys in my life after him, but they have not once led me to tears, when in his case, it had become a ritual for me to cry every other day. I have understood that only i can keep myself happy and no one else can do that for me. Some one getting on your nerves? Ignore them! They don't have power over your life! If they come to your house after that - get a restraining order and enjoy a cup of tea/coffee with a good book.
I didn't get the liberty of being too spoilt. yes i was spoilt, but never to the extent of getting my own brand new car, a psp, i do not even own a personal gameboy, i have not gone out for late night reckless parties with my friends, not gone clubbing, pubbing, boozing, jazzing, smashing or orgying. Though i would still consider the fact that i did miss out on a lot, i have my whole life ahead to do these things. Silver lining - I turned out saner than some of my other single children compadres. While they just cannot seem to adjust to living out on their own, or even in 'crowded' environments i can take care of myself to some level. Being a single child, i am also NOT afraid of being alone for some time. A one room apartment is no big deal for me.
I am going to stop here, it's late already and i think i am becoming a little preachy this time. I am going to leave you with this thought though - There is always something good that comes out of all that is bad. If you think that your bad luck won't stop, look at it this way, it just makes you stronger for the next round of crap life is going to throw at you.
There has to be some way to make every one understand, you are not the only one. STOP LAMENTING OVER YOUR LIFE!
And no, do not skew this into thinking, "That was quite rude! She is just bitter because she doesn't get attention." This is my way of rationalising the situations i have gone through. There have been people in worse conditions (i know - i have heard the stories about the starving children at the dinner table) however, the situations i have been in, though not as bad as theirs, have been tormenting for me.
So this is my list of Silver linings!
I lost my father when i was a kid - there has to be a positive to this! I cannot keep slapping my forehead and yelling "Why me lord?!" all my life! Once he was no more, i was the only thing keeping my mother sane ( that's what she said! As far as i can recall, i must have driven her to the brink of insanity with my tantrums ), i became secluded, dove head straight into books to keep me happy... leading to me staying away from partying, drugs, sex and a hell lot of things the cool kids were experimenting with at that time.
I saw what the consequences were for some of them. Teenage pregnancies, getting involved with thugs and goons, failing school, it was a nightmare, but they pulled through by teaching themselves one sentence - at least we were cool and famous.
I had several heartbreaks as a teenager, no boy was really ready to go out with me, and my crushes were definitely repelled by my actions. I remember telling one such incident in my previous posts. Where is the silver lining? I developed character and a personality. I didn't manage to make my self thin and shallow like a lot of school girls i see now. I am loved by the people who know me (not bragging, but really they do love me - can't write this without a smirk on my face)
I commited the blunder of taking risky and addictive substances in college. I only hung out with boys because of this and became the root of a lot of unwanted rumours. So much so that there came a time when i was linked with more than five guys at once. Silver lining? I had fun with the guys, even though it was the wrong way, i gained experiance, i came to know what is wrong and to what degree was it considered right. I now know that my kids will go through the same phase and unlike my previous generation, i would be a little more tolerant about engaging in social drinking, smoking, etc. I might be more understanding if such a situation arrives.
I fell in love with a boy who used me ... for over two years. Sounds like i was stupid and he was just being a guy. I lost my self esteem, i lost many friends, i lost my mind, my enthusiasm for life, i lost him in the end too. Silver lining - I have a thicker skin now. There have been other guys in my life after him, but they have not once led me to tears, when in his case, it had become a ritual for me to cry every other day. I have understood that only i can keep myself happy and no one else can do that for me. Some one getting on your nerves? Ignore them! They don't have power over your life! If they come to your house after that - get a restraining order and enjoy a cup of tea/coffee with a good book.
I didn't get the liberty of being too spoilt. yes i was spoilt, but never to the extent of getting my own brand new car, a psp, i do not even own a personal gameboy, i have not gone out for late night reckless parties with my friends, not gone clubbing, pubbing, boozing, jazzing, smashing or orgying. Though i would still consider the fact that i did miss out on a lot, i have my whole life ahead to do these things. Silver lining - I turned out saner than some of my other single children compadres. While they just cannot seem to adjust to living out on their own, or even in 'crowded' environments i can take care of myself to some level. Being a single child, i am also NOT afraid of being alone for some time. A one room apartment is no big deal for me.
I am going to stop here, it's late already and i think i am becoming a little preachy this time. I am going to leave you with this thought though - There is always something good that comes out of all that is bad. If you think that your bad luck won't stop, look at it this way, it just makes you stronger for the next round of crap life is going to throw at you.
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