I am back with more ramblings
Today's amalgamation of thoughts - Who is a good friend ?
I have had many, how should i put this - pals? Should i go with that word? Since friend, in today's time is too strong a word. When i was younger (look at me being all old and wise) i used to take companionship really seriously. I could do anything in the name of friendship. Even go against my parents. Well that came back and bit me on my behind. For me, any one who was nice to me and talked to me was my best friend.
And a lot of people took this naivety for granted.
I don't want to make this a serious and sombre post, but somehow, my mood isn't letting me do the opposite. So, i am just going to let my thoughts flow and let the post be what it has to be.
Once i keep my thoughts in place, i see how i expect too much out of a person. Every one expects to recieve the love they give and maybe i loved too hard. Not looking at what and whom i really should have loved - my family, my mother, father, even my dogs. They never got the attention they deserved. I was too busy seeking the fondness elsewhere. It is not like i am saying friendship isn't sacred anymore, but it's soiled.
I have five people i know outside my family, whom i respect, and admire for their patience with me, even though they weren't blood.
I look at the unforgettable series - F.R.I.E.N.D.S, I had built a fantasy in my head watching it. I saw myself living with a bunch of people who took as much care of me as i of them. It never turned out that way. Maybe i am being impatient, i might just have all my fantasies come true in due time, but, till then, it is the bitter disappointments i have suffered because of my own laughable assumptions.
How do you judge friendship? Is it judged at all? Should anyone love a friend unconditionally? Are there demands and clauses in every friendship? Is friendship really a give-take arrangemnt? I have too many questions that have gone unanswered.
It's not like i have turned into a cynic and lost all hope. I still strive to look at the world through my rose coloured glasses and hope to find a few glowing spirits like me.
Here is with a big sigh, that i leave this article at its bitter end. I seem to have vented most of my feelings. Might come back with more soon.
Today's amalgamation of thoughts - Who is a good friend ?
I have had many, how should i put this - pals? Should i go with that word? Since friend, in today's time is too strong a word. When i was younger (look at me being all old and wise) i used to take companionship really seriously. I could do anything in the name of friendship. Even go against my parents. Well that came back and bit me on my behind. For me, any one who was nice to me and talked to me was my best friend.And a lot of people took this naivety for granted.
I don't want to make this a serious and sombre post, but somehow, my mood isn't letting me do the opposite. So, i am just going to let my thoughts flow and let the post be what it has to be.
Once i keep my thoughts in place, i see how i expect too much out of a person. Every one expects to recieve the love they give and maybe i loved too hard. Not looking at what and whom i really should have loved - my family, my mother, father, even my dogs. They never got the attention they deserved. I was too busy seeking the fondness elsewhere. It is not like i am saying friendship isn't sacred anymore, but it's soiled.
I have five people i know outside my family, whom i respect, and admire for their patience with me, even though they weren't blood.
I look at the unforgettable series - F.R.I.E.N.D.S, I had built a fantasy in my head watching it. I saw myself living with a bunch of people who took as much care of me as i of them. It never turned out that way. Maybe i am being impatient, i might just have all my fantasies come true in due time, but, till then, it is the bitter disappointments i have suffered because of my own laughable assumptions.
How do you judge friendship? Is it judged at all? Should anyone love a friend unconditionally? Are there demands and clauses in every friendship? Is friendship really a give-take arrangemnt? I have too many questions that have gone unanswered.
It's not like i have turned into a cynic and lost all hope. I still strive to look at the world through my rose coloured glasses and hope to find a few glowing spirits like me.
Here is with a big sigh, that i leave this article at its bitter end. I seem to have vented most of my feelings. Might come back with more soon.
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