There are a lot of things that are going on in the world right now, a lot of destruction, war, people are dying. Is it bad that right now, I am just thinking about me?
Not me per say, this guy actually.
Not just a random guy though. He is a friend. A close friend.
And I have these feelings, that make me feel like a teenager again. I know now, that he will never have feelings for me, but hey, a girl can dream right. He has a strange effect on me, the way my ex had.
My day doesn't go well without seeing his face. I don't get a smile on my face without talking to him. This isn't good for me , you know why ?
He likes another friend of mine. This is the second time it has happened to me and it hurts. It pains to watch them together because I feel jealous and I have the guilt for having bad thoughts about my friend as well!
I am not sure how to go about this, because they both are good friends of mine and I am not sure what I am supposed to do about my feelings. The last time this happened I was trapped in the middle of a sexual apocalypse. My will broken down, my heart torn to pieces, my self respect down the drain.
I was in love with a man who cheated on me again and again and again and I still stayed with him, making him move on from the girls he fell for.
And I can see my self drowning in the same mess all over again. The age old Love triangle, the cliche of the century and I have made the mistake of throwing myself splat in the middle of it again.
Fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice, well, I am ashamed but, as the heart has to work on its own, I stand ashamed.
This Valentine's day, I will be doing the same thing I did last Valentine's day - Watch the man I am in love with romance someone else, and smile as he shows off his new love and push him to have a better life than me.
I guess some things don't change for some people
Not me per say, this guy actually.
Not just a random guy though. He is a friend. A close friend.
And I have these feelings, that make me feel like a teenager again. I know now, that he will never have feelings for me, but hey, a girl can dream right. He has a strange effect on me, the way my ex had.
My day doesn't go well without seeing his face. I don't get a smile on my face without talking to him. This isn't good for me , you know why ?
He likes another friend of mine. This is the second time it has happened to me and it hurts. It pains to watch them together because I feel jealous and I have the guilt for having bad thoughts about my friend as well!
I am not sure how to go about this, because they both are good friends of mine and I am not sure what I am supposed to do about my feelings. The last time this happened I was trapped in the middle of a sexual apocalypse. My will broken down, my heart torn to pieces, my self respect down the drain.
I was in love with a man who cheated on me again and again and again and I still stayed with him, making him move on from the girls he fell for.
And I can see my self drowning in the same mess all over again. The age old Love triangle, the cliche of the century and I have made the mistake of throwing myself splat in the middle of it again.
Fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice, well, I am ashamed but, as the heart has to work on its own, I stand ashamed.
This Valentine's day, I will be doing the same thing I did last Valentine's day - Watch the man I am in love with romance someone else, and smile as he shows off his new love and push him to have a better life than me.
I guess some things don't change for some people
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