Addiction.
You can't control it. It seeps into you on the very first bite, sip, puff, even look. You can't escape an addiction. It will follow you, feed on you as you foster it, till you are empty from within.
Don't take heed to people who say its very easy to get rid of it. They are all wrong. They haven't gone through a real addiction. I am not telling you that it will never leave you. It will. Once you cannot help it anymore. Once you have no strength anymore.
I have been addicted. To a lot of things. Cigarettes, food, alcohol ... mostly food.
But the other ones were quite addictive. So much so that i was called for interventions, taken to the hospital and mostly scolded by my friends. I won't say i was addicted like the ones you find fallen face down on the streets ( i have seen some of those and they were never as funny as the memes you see on facebook) but i was addicted, i was stuck in the vortex and i couldn't get out. I couldn't think straight without it.
It was a bad time in my life, even though it wasn't as bad as the others', it was enough to take me to the edge. I want to share every aspect of my life with all of you. I have no idea what the reason really is. Maybe i want the attention or i just want people who are in situations like mine to get a heads up for what's in store for them.
I will start with the stories in another post but the point i want to make here is - Don't get into a situation you cannot get out of. It is hard, there are a lot of tempting offers from a lot of persuasive people. But you have to follow through. Having fun does not mean leaving the rest of your life behind. No preaching going on here. I want people to understand - i am still young, it's not my place to teach ,but i can still give a warning and a shout out to all my friends out there, to just be careful. The world is not a good place for naive and sweet people. They get crushed the fastest.
Till the next time - I wish all of you best of luck and have a happy life.
You can't control it. It seeps into you on the very first bite, sip, puff, even look. You can't escape an addiction. It will follow you, feed on you as you foster it, till you are empty from within.
Don't take heed to people who say its very easy to get rid of it. They are all wrong. They haven't gone through a real addiction. I am not telling you that it will never leave you. It will. Once you cannot help it anymore. Once you have no strength anymore.
I have been addicted. To a lot of things. Cigarettes, food, alcohol ... mostly food.
But the other ones were quite addictive. So much so that i was called for interventions, taken to the hospital and mostly scolded by my friends. I won't say i was addicted like the ones you find fallen face down on the streets ( i have seen some of those and they were never as funny as the memes you see on facebook) but i was addicted, i was stuck in the vortex and i couldn't get out. I couldn't think straight without it.
It was a bad time in my life, even though it wasn't as bad as the others', it was enough to take me to the edge. I want to share every aspect of my life with all of you. I have no idea what the reason really is. Maybe i want the attention or i just want people who are in situations like mine to get a heads up for what's in store for them.
I will start with the stories in another post but the point i want to make here is - Don't get into a situation you cannot get out of. It is hard, there are a lot of tempting offers from a lot of persuasive people. But you have to follow through. Having fun does not mean leaving the rest of your life behind. No preaching going on here. I want people to understand - i am still young, it's not my place to teach ,but i can still give a warning and a shout out to all my friends out there, to just be careful. The world is not a good place for naive and sweet people. They get crushed the fastest.
Till the next time - I wish all of you best of luck and have a happy life.
I read through all your posts, and don't really know what to write. Barring a few (like, very few) things, it was like reading my own journal. The same self-image issues, the jealousies, the heartbreaks, the rejections, the jokes.
ReplyDeleteIt was actually sort of...therapeutic? To know that another person is facing the exact same thing. Because none of my pretty, slim friends are able to understand it if I tell them.
Keep writing. Your writing style is really nice!
Hey Sanchari
ReplyDeleteI am really happy that my posts got through to you.
Your comment has given a tremendous push to my desire to write more.
Hope to see such good, even critical feedback from your side in the future.
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Thanks a ton
Stay jolly
TBFD